A Fresh Start

So, I've decided to do two things over the next two weeks: I am going to blog every day to hone in my writing skills (whether I feel like it or not), and I am only going to say nice things about people.
     About a month ago, I was really angry with a close friend. I felt like I had been let down by this person time and time again, and I was just sick of the situation and really frustrated. I stumbled upon an article about dealing with this type of situation, and it recommended that the first step in resolving the anger was to write a letter to the person you are bitching about. Write a completely clear and truthful letter stating everything you hate, dislike and are angry about.
     I did this, and my letter was nasty. I thought of every possible thing this person had done to piss me off, irritate me, hurt me- you name it, I put it on paper. It was an extremely bitter outpouring of emotion. So, after you write that letter, you are supposed to go back and change all the names to be about yourself. It was a heart-wrenching yet eye-opening experience. All of the ugly things I had written about this person were really the secret, deep-dark things I thought about myself. My anger towards the other person was immediately gone as I realized all my criticisms were really criticisms about myself.
    I found myself pondering my state of being hated this week. I think I am more disliked now than I have ever been before (which is impressive because a lot of people don't like me!). There has been some nasty backstabbing in the arts community recently, and I know that some people were not happy about which side of the debates I ended up on. I have spent a lot of time worried about one particular situation, in which the founder of the theatre company I work for and I disagreed on a new theater project he was starting. A lot of unfortunate things were said (on both sides), and I have a feeling there is no redeeming a relationship any time soon.
     But then I realized that the more I talked and worried about him and what he may or may not be thinking about me, the more negative energy I was putting out there. Not to mention the fact that any negative thing I might be saying about him was really something I was thinking about myself. Then, I ran across this Wayne Dyer quote today: "How people treat you is their karma. How you react is yours." That's when I decided it's time for a fresh start,.
     As I type this, I'm feeling fairly anxious, tired, and stressed. I am ready to give this being positive experiment a try. Niceness- 2 weeks- no negative energy. Who knows? What goes around may actually come around! Here goes. . .